Posts tagged type 1 diabetes
Sometimes I feel like my diabetes is the reason I have no friends…
I’ve had diabetes for 7 years this May and have struggled with diabulimia and not taking my insulin for about 4 years. My mother has often called me “selfish” for what she see’s as self harm (not taking my insulin) even though I see it as a way to escape. She often tells me I should just take my own life now and get it over and done with. There’s also a chance I have early lymphatic cancer. That’s the first time I’ve said it since I found out. Trying to stay strong.
I have an appointment with a new endo this week (switching to adult care) and im terrified. My A1C was 10.4 when I got tested in December, and honestly I don’t think it will be that much better now.
I want to have really good control but I don’t know why I can’t make myself check and bolus properly. When I think about it I just start to hate myself but also hate how I treat myself. I don’t think I ever really dealt with the emotional and psychological issues when I was diagnosed. But that was ten years ago.
I just never feel good and I really hate that. I don’t know how to feel better.
I think too often people hate on Type 2 diabetics. Guess what? They didn’t do it to themselves either. They have an awful disease too. And all the hate adds to society’s view on all diabetes. Even though I am T1, I will fight tooth and nail against anyone being mean to Type 2s.
I do not have diabetes, yet it has affected me greatly. This year I began dating a guy who was diagnosed as TD1 five years ago. He is in his thirties and I am a few years younger.
The first time we were in bed together I noticed the pump, and it didn’t really phase me. I’d seen one before, and I know all bodies are different and come with their unique quirks.
I admit I knew little to nothing about diabetes prior to meeting him - mostly that there were two types.
In the early days of our relationship, I made light of his disease. Not mocking it at all, just acting as though it wasn’t a big deal for me. Honestly, it wasn’t a big deal for me, and I developed a great respect for how he took care of himself and handled the inconveniences of constant testing with grace.
The more I fell for him, the more I found myself doing research on TD1 and the lifestyles of those affected. When I read what a massive impact it has on people’s lives, I was heartbroken. I truly had no idea how taxing the disease is, and how it affects one not just physically, but profoundly emotionally as well. Suddenly I was racked with guilt.
I had never meant to be insensitive, and only now am I seeing how ignorant many of my comments must have been. I grew up understanding that health issues were private matters, so I refrained from what I felt would be invasive questions. He is a big, strong, amazing guy, and I suppose I also sensed that tiptoeing around his diabetes would be emasculating.
I don’t drink juice, but I now keep a bottle in my fridge at all times, and I know where he hid some supplies in my house. I have spent countless hours reading medical info, Internet forums, and sites like this, to gain as much insight into what having TD1 must be like for him. He doesn’t know I do this, because it has been hard for me to communicate how much I care.
How do I truly show my depth of concern without seeming overprotective or annoying? I don’t know if I’d ever be able to say this out loud (I’ve always struggled to display my feelings), but if it were possible, I’d readily take some of his burden onto myself.
I haven’t said ‘I love you’ to him (or to anyone else, for that matter), but feeling such compassion for another person - whether or not we end up together - may be as close as I’ve ever come.
I’ve been diabetic for 11 months today. At first I thought oh I have to take shots and check my blood sugars and everything, this isnt that bad. But lately, its been getting harder and harder. Some days I dont even try and dont check my blood what so ever and I feel like giving up. I get so much crap from everyone about it, and I have to sit out sometimes during wrestling practice because of my blood is too high or too low. That’s when the hate is at its highest. And I don’t feel like I can come to anybody to talk without feeling like a burden or something. Idk.
Ive had diabetes since I was 7 years old, and I turned 16 the other week. I’ve stressed about my type1 so much, as well as coursework at school, family, friends etc and when I stress I lose weight and my bg is all over the place. I’ve never made my bloods high to lose weight, and all my friends tell me they’re envious of my body. My mum and doctors have all accused me of deliberately making my bg high (my HBA1C had gone up from something like 7.2 to 7.6 idek) and that made me stress even more. I know I have good control. I know I’m not the best, but at least I know I’m somewhere near safe. My parents are ECPs in the NHS so they’ve been helping me, but it’s like I still have more of an idea about MY disease. I’ve only had tumblr since last night and I already feel like I can relate to people on here, regardless of whether I know them or not. I know I’ve not got it worst, and I know there are people out there who can’t really look out for themselves because (for example) their doctors don’t know shit. But I want to tell the followers on here to keep strong. We’re always going to feel like shit. Just like we’re never going to be able to get rid of this ridiculous disease. But keep strong. Keep fighting. Don’t let it take over you. Keep strong, because one day, we’re going to get that cure. And then we’re gonna be free…
Hi! I recently put on a lot of weight- and I can’t seem to find good advice/recommendations anywhere because weight loss diets are never geared towards type one diabetics. So I thought I’d turn to tumblretics for some tips- any type ones out there have any experience when it comes to safely loosing a few pounds? (: