Sometimes I get really angry at the boxes that the blood sugar testers come in, with the picture of the great reading on the front, like, “oooh, invisible fake person, you got a 92, bully for yooooooou, must be nice to be so perfect all the time”
I sometimes actually like feeling lo. For one, people praise the lower the blood sugars, and two, I can actually eat something without having to stab myself, like a regular person.
In the past I have taken too much of my gliclazide in order to require hospital admission, because I wanted the attention. The last occasion I ended up unconscious in resus. The fear has kept me away from this behaviour for several years, but recently the temptation is back again, and I hate myself for this.
Please stay strong! You don’t need to hate yourself for anything you feel - if you feel the temptation then you just feel it. Try to turn that hate into self-care and reach out for help if the temptation gets to strong. <3
I dont know what to feel right now. Im speculating that I have diabetes bcuz Ive done some research and I realized that Ive got most of the symptoms. I haven’t gone to the doctors yet but I cant rub off the feeling that I do. I’m scared and worried.
Please make a doctor’s appointment! It can be scary at first, but the sooner you know, the sooner you can get help and avoid your body getting sick/hurt from not treating it.
Why is it so hard for us to lose weight???? I’m a workout addict. I’ve never known anyone to eat cleaner than I do. My A1C has been 6.3 for six months straight. WHY CAN’T I LOSE WEIGHT
One of my best moments as a diabetic is when I asked my endo (who also is t1d) if he saw an endo or just treated himself. His whole demeanor changed, going from doctor mode to fellow diabetic mode when he informed me that yes, he saw an endo (“cause a doctor that has himself for a doctor has a fool for a doctor”). I honestly think he was glad to be finally be able to not be negative when speaking about diabetes- I know I was. It makes me smile every time I think about it.
I have an appointment with a new endo this week (switching to adult care) and im terrified. My A1C was 10.4 when I got tested in December, and honestly I don’t think it will be that much better now.
I want to have really good control but I don’t know why I can’t make myself check and bolus properly. When I think about it I just start to hate myself but also hate how I treat myself. I don’t think I ever really dealt with the emotional and psychological issues when I was diagnosed. But that was ten years ago.
I just never feel good and I really hate that. I don’t know how to feel better.
If I don’t take any insulin I won’t feel pain. If I don’t take insulin I won’t feel like some freak of nature. If I don’t take insulin I will end up in a hospital and let the nurses act as my pancreas because I am so exhausted from having to be one.
I know how exhausting it is, but the important thing to remember is that if you don’t take any insulin, you will feel pain. Maybe not in the immediate, maybe not even for a few days. But you will, eventually. I try to think of the things that diabetes will steal from me that will be painful, as motivation to take my insulin. Being unable to read beautiful books because of damaged eyes. Being hooked up to dialysis machines. Sharp nerve pain that eludes relief because of damaged nerves. IVs and catheters in hospitals. Hospital “diabetic menu” (EW!!) That helps me sometimes. Stay strong! <3
I’m actually so fed up with having diabetes right now. I’ve been in and out of hospital for 4 months now with kidney infections, terrible chest/back and leg pains and glandular fever and the worst part is I cannot control my levels and I’m also insulin resistant. I give up I don’t even know what to do anymore I had 40 units of novorapid last night and finally got my sugar to 3.8. I had a banana and when I woke up it was 23.6 and 2.1 ketones. I give up on this crap.