I live alone. Each night when I go to bed, I make sure my house is at an acceptable level of neatness (the kind you have for guests) in case I have a hypo in the middle of the night and am unconscious/die by morning. If someone comes looking for me, I don’t want them to have to walk into an untidy house.
- Anon
I’ve had CFRD (Cystic Fibrosis Related Diabetes) for 4 and a half years now. The first year I was amazing at it all, and now the past 3.5 years it seems like I’ve given up. But I don’t want to say that cause I truly am aware of what I am doing and I want to get better. The worst part? Every single week my I:C ratios change drastically and I fear this is what is keeping me from getting an insulin pump. I’m so frustrated with this and none of my doctors know why this is happening.
-Anon
Sometimes I just wanna get away from it all. I haven’t even been type one for a month now and I already just wanna rip out my site and throw it in the garbage. I wanna give up sometimes, but I can’t. Even though I say I’m being strong, I’m not. I’m scared every day. I cry every night, and my boyfriend broke up with me because I’m diabetic. He doesnt know how hard this past month has been for me…
- Anon
Anon, you deserve so much better than someone who leaves you for being diabetic. It’s not your fault you got it, and if he can’t understand and support you through your struggles, well then HE isn’t worth YOUR time. You deserve better than that.
- Admin
I was diagnosed with Type 1 when I was 11; I am 25 now and spent the passed 10+ years neglecting to take care of myself. Just recently went to an eye dr. appointment and learned I have the beginning signs of diabetic retinopathy. SHITS REAL GUYS - Talk about a kick in the butt to get me back on the right path. It’s fucking scary! I’m not going to lie - Take control while you are young. Seriously. Need support? e-mail me: christy,rojas@hotmail.com
People get mad at my best friend because sometimes she pretends to have diabetes…but it’s only to help make me feel better because she knows i have a hard time dealing with it and i feel alone. I know diabetes isn’t a joke and she does too but i wish people wouldn’t get mad at her because sometimes its the only reason i make it through the day …
- Anon
Sometimes I feel like giving up. My family doesn’t understand how I feel, and I honestly think that no one will ever love me. But I don’t, because I keep hoping there will come a day when my parents get why I’m angry, and some guy actually wants to be with me. But most of all, I want to live to see the cure for the disease that is constantly making me feel trapped inside my own body, and I want to know that no more children will ever have to endure the pain I’ve endured.
- Anon
I feel so reassured that because of how fragile I am with my diabetes, I can die so easily whenever I want.
- Anon
National Suicide Prevention Line:
It just makes me so paranoid. I’m expecting for there to be a day when my girlfriend throws up her hands and says she’s done, she just can’t handle all of the problems I have. And I’m scared because I just know one day that is going to happen.
- Anon
I love all of you. I’ve only had T1 for a little over a year and a half, but I still have a very hard time coping. We all do. I love being able to open up and rant about this disease, I’m sure everyone does. If anyone ever needs to talk, I would be more than happy to. Meeting new people with Diabetes and talking about it is the greatest feeling.
